Note: This post is not about Anna June, so if you're just here for AJ, please skip it. Also, it contains a lot of personal information about myself. I'm putting it out there so the community can know exactly what I am up against. I am inspired by Sherri Walters, who wrote a similar post about herself. I am inspired by Jennifer Dome, who writes regularly and Weighs-In on her blog each Wednesday. I am really, really inspired by Jen West and Stephen Vinson, local folks that have made their weight loss journey online and have gained support from followers all over the world. I've been cheerleaders occasionally in comments to them. Now I need cheerleaders of my own.
When I told Anna June about my new weight loss and exercise goals, she said, "Yeah, right." She even laughed at me, because she knows me so well. But I am determined this time, and here is why:
I am on medicines for a bunch of stuff that would likely go away if I lost weight:
3. Allergies (they may not go away, but it would be great if they'd lessen)
I have these minor problems that overweight people have:
2. Knee pain
4. Hemorrhoids (yeah, I said it)
5. Foot pain
7. Night sweats
8. Chafing (not cool to have to wear pantyhose in the South)
And then there's this major problem I have that is ruining my life:
While the doctor concluded I don't have sleep apnea, I snore like a freight train. Between that and the sweating, I am waking myself up. Which makes me tired. Which makes me not want to exercise or eat right. Which makes me tired. (You get the idea - it's a terrible cycle.)
I'm pretty much on the fast track to diabetes. Both of my grandmothers suffered from it. Grandma Annette died from congestive heart failure and Grandma Hazel is currently in the hospital with crazy blood pressure and a probable light stroke. I have a feeling their diabetes played a huge part in these things. I don't want AJ's kids to have to come visit me in the hospital one day. Heck, I want to live to see if AJ even has any kids.
This morning, I weighed 177.8 pounds on our digital scale. I am 5'2" tall, which means I should weigh between 104 and 130. A couple of years ago I lost 14 pounds. The fact that I've gained back double that amount is scary and sad. My doctor once offered to attend Weight Watchers with me - I told her that I needed to spend the hour working out instead of sitting in a meeting. I already know what I should do. I've been on an antidepressant that has worked, but worked too well - I am not really depressed, but I've gained weight, which makes me depressed. I could not make myself care about diet and exercise. In that respect, it's not working. We've gotta work on that.
My clothes don't fit. I'm exhausted. Ben can't sleep - he wants to defenestrate me. I'm not "there" for AJ always...last night I fell asleep on the sofa before 8 PM. Not cool.
A lady in my Zumba class lost 62 pounds in the span of 1 year. She did it with the goal of being healthier. She exercised a lot (Zumba, boot camp, treadmill) and ate healthier. She involved her family. She prayed. She got encouragement from her workout instructors and friends.She looks fabulous and feels great.
If she can do it, I can, too.
I want to lose one pound a week for a year. That would be 52 pounds, which would bring me to an ideal weight of 125 pounds. This is an attainable goal, which will require a lot of willpower, dedication, time, and money.
My plan includes:
1. Eating more meals at home, where I can plan, measure, and reduce temptation.
2. Eating fewer sweets. My Oreo addiction has got to go.
3. Recording everything I eat on My Fitness Pal.
4. Working out most days. One day a week is not going to cut it.
5. Rewards! For every 10 pounds lost, I will get myself a massage.
6. Encouragement from my family, friends, readers, bloggers, Zumba friends, work colleagues and more
I want to report back to you all on next April 24 that I am svelte and healthy. I have money in a savings account that I can spend on a new wardrobe when I reach my goal...that should be encouragement to maintain the goal weight! My heart wasn't meant to carry around a size 14 body. I need to be about an 8.
I see my doctor in about a month. I want to lose a little weight so I'm at least back to what I was the last time I saw her. Her encouragement is key for me, and I don't want to disappoint her. I will be checking with her about adjusting my medicine.
I thank you in advance for your encouragement, prayers, and checking in with me. I had a bowl of fruit for breakfast - it was delicious. I need to make this happen for myself. I hope you understand.
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